In my daily devotional today the author, Sharon Jaynes says,
“Shattered dreams often become the pieces for a beautiful mosaic we never even thought to imagine.”
That little saying got me thinking about all the dreams I had in high school. I was dating one specific boy on and off who eventually joined the military. We were going to marry young, never have any kids, and I was going to be an awesome military wife. At one point in our relationship I was even planning to move to where he was stationed and live with him. I wish I had a time machine to go back and slap myself upside the head. Ugh, what was I thinking? I wasn’t thinking with my brain, only my heart. I was in love and nothing was going to stop how I wanted my life to turn out. With him I had it all…or so I thought.
My life now is just like the saying goes, “a beautiful mosaic I never even thought to imagine”. I’m married to the most incredible man who loves me and would do anything for me. Including looking up fart videos that he finds completely stupid but knows will make me smile and laugh aloud. We have two amazing, and I mean AMAZING, kids. Going into our relationship I was very honest with my hubby and told him I didn’t want to have kids. Thank you Lord for breaking open my heart in that area and blessing me with my two babies. Noah wakes up every morning with one goal: to make me go bat crap crazy. Skylar wakes up with another goal: to throw out as much attitude as she possibly can. But even though they spend so much time trying to make me lose my mind, I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. They are my everything and sometimes I start to think about them and I get teary eyed. I never wanted kids? Man, my life just wouldn’t be complete without them.
I started working at the same daycare center as my mom straight out of high school. That was the plan, work there forever. It was a place where I couldn’t move up and rarely ever got a raise, but I loved the kids. God changed my plan into his own in January 2012 when I got fired from that job. Apparently, teachers there doing drugs while watching kids was perfectly fine but me sticking up for the kids in danger including my own son was too much to handle. But God knew what he was doing. In 2013 after we bought our house I opened my own home daycare. Now it’s 2017 and it’s still going strong and I still love it. God has taken my daycare and just transformed it and transformed me. I get to stay home with my babies while taking care of other people’s babies so they can work with peace of mind that there little one are well cared for.
Life sure can be complicated but that’s because we take the reins and we think we know what’s best. I’m so thankful that at some point in my life, before it was too late, that I handed over my reins to God and let Him do his work. My life is the beautiful mosaic that it is because of Him.
Thank you, Lord. Thank you.